Last night, things got really tough. Where the worst is 10 on the richter scale, it reached 8, maybe 8 and a half. I was desperate for a good cry and tears did fall down my cheeks but there was no full release. I was deep in the grip of the worst kind of migraine aura symptoms again. My thoughts became dark, but I held on. I noticed that there’s a part of me that welcomes this terrible feeling and a part of me that denies and fights it, it’s so complicated.
Then, I wrote a few lines to someone special and unexpectedly found I started channelling information from the inner planes, I realised I was spiritually wide open and acting as a receiver, a conduit. This happens, but it was interesting it was happening now. It calmed me down and balanced me out, I was still low mood, low energy, but went to bed in a much better frame of mind.
I lay in bed last night and realised I don’t have to pray in desperation for support like I have done at times like this, I was okay with myself. I smiled and realised this was my chance to embrace it. Thinking about the migraine symptoms I was experiencing, I said to myself, “This is love expressing itself. I’m okay, everything is going to be okay.” And I fell asleep.
Now, I wake up and feel fine, my body has been healing itself all through the night. I’m sure it’s got a lot more healing to do, but I feel, on a deep level, that something profound, something very good happened over the past 24 hours.