I’m a blessed and lucky person. I live a comfortable life with my loving and devoted husband. I don’t go to work, I’m retired and so I dedicate my time to spiritual pursuits and my art and craft activities. As I said, lucky and privileged. Most of the time I’m optimistic, cheerful, upbeat, loving, active and calm. But every now and then, more often of late, I have migraine aura episodes that can last days or weeks. When they occur, sometimes I get periods of depression alongside. These depression spells usually last a week or two at most. These are tough times and I just went through the most intense depressive episode of this year.
At these times, I am very down and my thinking is negative and destructive. My recent posts have reflected this experience because writing helped me by getting my thoughts and feelings out of my head. I posted some of the things I wrote because I know there are people whose experiences are similar and I think it’s important to know we are not alone. I also believe it’s important to de-stigmatise depression and other mental health problems to help more people understand what it is like from the inside. It can happen to anyone and those of us who have such experiences also understand and empathise with those kindred spirits who walk a similar path.
I am well supported by my loving husband who is very patient and knows exactly how and when to reach out to me and offer support, he is always on hand. I do sometimes push him away when depressed, I can feel entirely isolated from everybody, even him, dwelling internally where all is bleak. Andy knows what to do, he knows when to leave me alone and when to intervene. Not everyone is so lucky, some loved ones may be at a loss to understand depression or support a person with the condition. Sometimes, the lack of understanding of a loved one can make things worse for everyone. At times like this, getting professional support is a good idea. In England, there’s a psychological therapy service called Improving Access To Psychological Therapy, available through the NHS via GP or self-referral. This service provides free support to anyone with depression or anxiety issues and can be found online for your area.
I would like to send out a most heartfelt “thank you” to all who have been in touch and offered support over the last week. I’m coming out of this difficult period now, getting better and more like my usual self every day. You kind souls are wonderful and your empathy and compassion is humbly valued and cherished. May you enjoy a blessed New Year full of light and love.