Posted in Health & Wellbeing, Life story

Thank You

I’m a blessed and lucky person.  I live a comfortable life with my loving and devoted husband.  I don’t go to work, I’m retired and so I dedicate my time to spiritual pursuits and my art and craft activities.  As I said, lucky and privileged.  Most of the time I’m optimistic, cheerful, upbeat, loving, active and calm.  But every now and then, more often of late, I have migraine aura episodes that can last days or weeks.  When they occur, sometimes I get periods of depression alongside.  These depression spells usually last a week or two at most.  These are tough times and I just went through the most intense depressive episode of this year.

At these times, I am very down and my thinking is negative and destructive.  My recent posts have reflected this experience because writing helped me by getting my thoughts and feelings out of my head.  I posted some of the things I wrote because I know there are people whose experiences are similar and I think it’s important to know we are not alone.  I also believe it’s important to de-stigmatise depression and other mental health problems to help more people understand what it is like from the inside.  It can happen to anyone and those of us who have such experiences also understand and empathise with those kindred spirits who walk a similar path.

I am well supported by my loving husband who is very patient and knows exactly how and when to reach out to me and offer support, he is always on hand.  I do sometimes push him away when depressed, I can feel entirely isolated from everybody, even him, dwelling internally where all is bleak.  Andy knows what to do, he knows when to leave me alone and when to intervene.  Not everyone is so lucky, some loved ones may be at a loss to understand depression or support a person with the condition.  Sometimes, the lack of understanding of a loved one can make things worse for everyone.  At times like this, getting professional support is a good idea.  In England, there’s a psychological therapy service called Improving Access To Psychological Therapy, available through the NHS via GP or self-referral.  This service provides free support to anyone with depression or anxiety issues and can be found online for your area.

I would like to send out a most heartfelt “thank you” to all who have been in touch and offered support over the last week.  I’m coming out of this difficult period now, getting better and more like my usual self every day.  You kind souls are wonderful and your empathy and compassion is humbly valued and cherished.  May you enjoy a blessed New Year full of light and love.     

Advertisements

Author:

Healing The Heart of the Earth is my blog and the Home of Four Branches Healing which is the shamanic and energy healing service of myself, Amanda Reid. My blog focuses on my spiritual thoughts, feelings and experiences throughout a daily life blessed with the freedom to be and do many of my favourite things. Coupled with the lessons, messages and challenges that certain physical conditions bring to me from time to time, namely migraine aura and osteoarthritis. Sometimes, I face outwards and focus on bringing healing to others, sometimes, I need to face inwards and focus on my own healing and growth. My passions include walking in the woodlands and working with the trees, strolling along beaches and swimming in the seas. I approach most things from the perspective of a worker with energy, looking for the energetic dynamic and using it to bring healing, hope, love, faith and manifestation into my life and those of others who cross my path, in as much as I am able. My path is wholly within the vibrations of the divine, particularly the feminine principle of the divine, whose current expression is enabling a balance of male and female energy for humanity. One day, we will be ready to embrace the non-gender reality of the cosmic levels completely, but for now, the divine feminine is bringing her loving and compassionate energy to balance out and bring healing to the millenia of masculine divine energy that has been expressing itself on Earth. If there was only one thing I could say to you, it is this, you are divine. It matters not who you are, you are divine. You have no reason to accept what I say, but I still wish for you to know it, not with your thoughts and mind but in such a way that you feel and experience the truth of it, embrace and embody it. You are divine. You and every other being you know. By divine, I mean you are made up of the same stuff as what we call God, what I call the Creator. At our core, all of us are that pure, that perfect, that magnificent and that wise. We are, however, a little more complicated than that, consisting of a number of elements that go together to make who we are in this, our present personality, in this, our current incarnation on Earth. Take that divine core and add a rather confused and easily bruised personality/ego with a severe memory problem, starting out (again) as a little baby, growing up in a hurt and challenging world, amongst a population of people all going through the same thing, all trying to work it out. The divine core, at soul level, is more like a passenger, its voice not heard for all the noise of our physical existence; the desires, the emotions, the struggles, the suffering, the pain, the fears. All of it, illusion, just a very convincing one. I’m one of many who are waking up. Are you one who is waking up? Confusing, isn’t it? But worth it. There truly is no other way, this is simply the best game in town and we are ascending. Wake up with me and embrace your divine nature. You are more than welcome, you are my reason for being here.

2 thoughts on “Thank You

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s