I think this is a good time for a recap on what’s been going on with me over the past year. A year of light and dark, love and fear, of questions and answers and more questions.
I’ve been my best and worst over this year and the swing between the two is becoming more and more frequent and intense. It’s been a difficult road to travel, to be honest.
The best times have embraced bliss, gifted serenity, emblazoned my heart with love and increased my psychic, empathic and mediumship skills to whole new levels. I have met and connected with a beautiful, loving, warrior sister of my heart. I have had some of the most powerful shamanic journeys ever, leading me to new and wonderful places, like the Sacred School of OmNa. I’ve been going through some powerful initiations and energetic exercises, courtesy of Marko Pogacnik and the aforementioned school of OmNa. It’s been life-changing and has gifted me many blessings.
The worst times have led me to the strongest, most overwhelming emotions of fear and sadness and I have descended to the deepest depths of my darkest nights. Some of that has been my own fears coming out to be released, which is a good thing. Some has been due to the transformations towards ascension I’ve been going through and some of it is still very much a mystery to me.
I’ve been looking for answers in the form of health issues and spiritual developments, I’ve been desperately looking for solutions to make the darkness go away, but all that has happened over the year is everything has got worse, bad times getting stronger and stronger and occurring more and more often, until I only get a few days of light between the phases of darkness.
There have been times I’ve lost my dignity completely. There have been times I’ve hurt others I love deeply and that is intolerable. There have been times I’ve failed to learn how to change and times I’ve worked it out and been able to move forward again.
One thing’s for certain, it’s been a rollercoaster of a year. My first post went out on January 13, so it’s been a year on here as well. I haven’t been able to continue offering the shamanic journeying service I hoped to provide because of the issues that have presented in the form of migraine aura with depression, when all that darkness descends. I wish I’d been well enough to do so but I’m still working on that.
All I can say is, as I go into 2019 with more questions and little resolved, with more dark than light presenting itself, I am not giving up. I hope more than life itself to sort this out, if I’m meant to be in the dark, to do so with more integrity and dignity. If I’m meant to work things out and move into the light, to find a way to do that.
One thing I am sure of, there are people in my life that have given me so much over this year it makes me emotional to the core to think of it. To you, I say a heartfelt “thank you, from the centre of my heart and the core of my soul” because I truly wonder how I would have survived without you. You have been my salvation and hope and my love for you overflows. May the Universe bless you and guide you through all the days of your life.