It feels like a new beginning and I am fighting with my beloved soul sister walking by my side. I am heading for the light and there is no stopping me. There is no room for doubt, although I feel it with me still, watching and waiting. Right now, I’m not as strong as I would like to be, I’ve got a cold virus, a swimmy head and am wondering if it’s the cold or another migraine starting.
My mum is in hospital, she had a knee replacement operation on Monday and now she’s in lots of pain, as would be expected, but they found a blood clot and now that’s the priority. She will be alright, I know she will, despite her eighty-nine years, she’s a feisty one, a fighter and strong in her body and mind. Right now, she needs me and she needs reassurance that everything is going to be alright.
I’m about to go for another healing session tomorrow, after the revelation of mercury poisoning in my brain at the last session, I’m wondering what it will reveal.
All these things are present, and yet my focus, whilst I’m not with my mum at the hospital, is on myself, not only for myself but for others, to get well and find a way to beat the darkness that, even now I can feel curling its tendrils at my feet. This is the depression that engulfs me from time to time, leaching all the light out of my world. Once I crash, I’m hopeless, but this time, with hope in my heart and the love of my sister, I am going to stop it from engulfing me, once and for all.
I hope you like today’s picture, it’s an image I captured from the car on new year’s day, on the journey back from celebrations with my husband, Andy’s family. Large wind turbines against an expressive sky. I was taking photos at the time to distract myself from the migraine symptoms and the internal darkness I was fighting then.