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The Healing Power of Love

I’ve always struggled to involve others when I’m going down with my mood.  Either I hide it or talk too much about it.  Saying nothing is a part of the withdrawal process that comes with depression, fuelled by thoughts that others won’t want to know or that I shouldn’t burden them.  Talking too much happens when I get scared and desperate, by that time, I’m self-consumed as only depression can make me.  For once, I may have got the balance right.   

Over the past year, I‘ve found the truest and most special connection with a person who feels to me like a part of my own soul.  This is a once-in-a-lifetime thing and I feel so blessed because I never even knew such a relationship was possible.  I didn’t know how to deal with such a strong and deep connection for a while, but this is something only a fool would let go of and I am not going to be that fool. 

Yesterday, despite having her own huge difficulties at this time, she stopped everything to charge to the rescue the moment she realised I was going down.  That’s exactly the type of person she is.  And what she said was so perfect that it was as though I was immediately wrapped in a blanket of love.  How could one be depressed after that?  I went to bed with a feeling of being loved and a warm glow in my heart.  She had kept my heart open.

Then, today I went to the hospital to visit my mother.  She had knee replacement surgery three days ago and is recovering, although she has developed a blood clot and is in a lot of pain.  Today, whilst I was with her, the physio staff came to get her out of bed for the first time.  To this point, she had not even moved her poorly leg.  She did everything they asked of her to get her to sit on the end of the bed, stand with a zimmer frame and transfer to a chair.  Sounds easy, but she was in agony and at times she screamed with the pain.  I found it quite hard to watch and had tears in my eyes that I tried to hide, I was so proud of her, at no point did she complain or refuse to continue, she was a true warrior.  Afterwards, I told her that and let her know how impressed I had been with what she had done.  Later, as I said goodbye, more love came pouring my way.

In all my years, apart from telling me “I think you’re lovely” several times over the past four years, my mother has not told me anything more loving than that, ever, not when I got my degree, became a schoolteacher or got married.  But today, for the first time, she said three things that blew me away; “I love you”,  “I couldn’t love you more if I tried” and “I’m glad you came into our family”.  Wow.  That’s a first.  That last comment referred to the fact my mum and dad adopted me as a baby.  I came away from the hospital today with tears in my eyes and more love in my heart than I could have imagined.  I cannot see how my mood could possibly crash now, with the love and support of my soul sister and the love of my mother filling me up to the brim.  And I love them both back with my whole heart. 

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Healing The Heart of the Earth is my blog and the Home of Four Branches Healing which is the shamanic and energy healing service of myself, Amanda Reid. My blog focuses on my spiritual thoughts, feelings and experiences throughout a daily life blessed with the freedom to be and do many of my favourite things. Coupled with the lessons, messages and challenges that certain physical conditions bring to me from time to time, namely migraine aura and osteoarthritis. Sometimes, I face outwards and focus on bringing healing to others, sometimes, I need to face inwards and focus on my own healing and growth. My passions include walking in the woodlands and working with the trees, strolling along beaches and swimming in the seas. I approach most things from the perspective of a worker with energy, looking for the energetic dynamic and using it to bring healing, hope, love, faith and manifestation into my life and those of others who cross my path, in as much as I am able. My path is wholly within the vibrations of the divine, particularly the feminine principle of the divine, whose current expression is enabling a balance of male and female energy for humanity. One day, we will be ready to embrace the non-gender reality of the cosmic levels completely, but for now, the divine feminine is bringing her loving and compassionate energy to balance out and bring healing to the millenia of masculine divine energy that has been expressing itself on Earth. If there was only one thing I could say to you, it is this, you are divine. It matters not who you are, you are divine. You have no reason to accept what I say, but I still wish for you to know it, not with your thoughts and mind but in such a way that you feel and experience the truth of it, embrace and embody it. You are divine. You and every other being you know. By divine, I mean you are made up of the same stuff as what we call God, what I call the Creator. At our core, all of us are that pure, that perfect, that magnificent and that wise. We are, however, a little more complicated than that, consisting of a number of elements that go together to make who we are in this, our present personality, in this, our current incarnation on Earth. Take that divine core and add a rather confused and easily bruised personality/ego with a severe memory problem, starting out (again) as a little baby, growing up in a hurt and challenging world, amongst a population of people all going through the same thing, all trying to work it out. The divine core, at soul level, is more like a passenger, its voice not heard for all the noise of our physical existence; the desires, the emotions, the struggles, the suffering, the pain, the fears. All of it, illusion, just a very convincing one. I’m one of many who are waking up. Are you one who is waking up? Confusing, isn’t it? But worth it. There truly is no other way, this is simply the best game in town and we are ascending. Wake up with me and embrace your divine nature. You are more than welcome, you are my reason for being here.

3 thoughts on “The Healing Power of Love

  1. This brought tears to my eyes, knowing how powerful these moments were with your mom. She has finally made peace and told you what you should have always known and it is a very special time indeed. One filled with so many emotions, one could easily get overwhelmed. From all the stress of the procedure, to seeing our loved ones struggle and feel helpless, to the moments that touch our hearts in ways when we realize how truly sad and broken we have been without those moments before. Sending a giant hug my sister. You are loved. Xo

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