It was a half moon yesterday, half in the light and half in the dark, a match for my mood.
I was struggling again, feeling sad and low, I tried using the ‘opening the heart’ exercise but could not even focus for a moment. So, I decided to go to the beach with Andy. In the car on the way, I thought about surrender. I thought it was okay to be sad and to surrender to being sad, so I said to my heart, “I feel how you feel and I love you, no matter what.” And something changed.
I realised that by surrendering to sadness, I was also letting it go, easily. I had chosen to be sad and now I was choosing to stay sad. So, I stopped doing that and chose love instead. I looked out of the window at the New Forest landscape and the wild horses, the sky and clouds, the sunlight. I was thinking about seeing the world with eyes filled with enhanced love. This was an ability given to me by Master Sananda when he placed his energetic hands over my eyes last April. Now, I realised I can invoke this ability whenever I use love and intent to do so. All of a sudden, I saw the world as beautiful beyond the physical reality, brighter, lighter, filled with love. Everything changed.
By the time we reached the beach, I was full of love and my sadness had departed. I had stopped choosing to be sad. I’d just allowed myself to feel whatever my heart chose to feel instead and, of course, my heart chose love. That was how to surrender. It was like finding the key to heaven.